Ramblings of a Nikki

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I saw the question and had to answer.... No and No... I feel like I am lost. Do I want to be a teacher? Yes, because its what I've always wanted to do. I'm happiest teaching, right now I just have to make due as a sub. But I don't feel like I am prepared. There is only so much sitting in a class can do. Its the experience... and right now my confidence on whether or not I'd be a good teacher is faltering and I'm talking about a preschool sped teacher. I think its mostly because I haven't gotten a job yet and I'm still a sub. I think its especially hard because my four years of college didn't really prepare me for all the paper work that comes with special ed and that scares the hell out of me. I'm great in the classroom but not so great with the paper work. I know It'll come with experience but hell, I don't know when I will get a job.

I don't think I would go back to school for something else. I couldn't unless it was to get my elementary degree. I'm just gonna keep going with what I am doing. I've decided to hold off on grad school for a year or so... just to wait and see if I can get a job first. Who knows where I'll end up. I could always try to fall back on my writing. *shrugs*

-NT-

Today when I was driving over to Dave's I got caught up in a traffic jam... but in Fargo/Moorhead we don't really have traffic jams. Yes, there is a 5 o'clock rush hour but nothing that is so terrible that I can't handle. Although, people can be moronic and have no balls when they drive up here. Anyway, when I turned onto the interstate to go over to ND I noticed the traffic was heavily backed up. I was only able to drive with my foot off the gas to get off of the ramp. I already knew that there was an accident.

As I was inching my way into traffic, I wondered what the scene would be like. How many cars, was there any injuries, what would I see? I made my way by merging to the far left lane, this part of the interstate is three lane. It took me about ten minutes to get through, and I was kind enough to let a few cars ahead of me, although one was undeserving because he took forever to get the hint that I would let him in. Several police cars buzzed by me while I was still inching.

Once I was finally came upon the scene, a tank truck was taking over two of the lanes. A head of him there was about four cars, one looked like it took a beating from the front and back. A few yards away on the left side of the interstate there was a white car that had its front end smashed in and was smoking.

After this traffic let up and I was able to travel my normal 55 miles per hour. (Sometimes 60). I called Dave, yes I am a bad driver that talks on my cell phone. A fire truck flew by. I did not see any ambulances.


This is probably the first time I've seen an accident this close with that many cars. You always hear about them afterward, but it is odd driving by one. It made me imagine what happened, who caused it. What are the conditions of the people. It also makes me thankful that I waited that extra minute to leave my apartment, that if I was five minutes ahead of schedule would I have been in that accident? There are too many variables.


On the way home from Dave's, I saw another accident. This one only involved one car that was smashed in the front. It looked like it ran into the wall. The tow track was taking it away.

I'm glad I made it home safely.

-NT-

My kitchen smells like a garbage dump. =(

Must find a gas mask....

I'm thinking of doing grad school online through UND. I could start in June... Must weigh my options and think about this one...

Ok...

Last night
I rearranged the living room.. now the t.v. is no longer up against my bedroom wall...

I piled Kim's Dishes.. I am not doing them. She should have done them before she left for the week. Why should I wash your mess after you cook big meals?

I cleaned the kitchen (aside from Kim's dishes)

I tried to clean out the dishwasher.. it smelled of stinky fish water that backed up from the disposal being clogged...

Today:

Christina gave me pots and pans... I am saved

If WW3 breaks loose and kim doesn't let me use her dishes... I have my own... nice shiny new pots and pans that Kim will not touch! I"m hiding them in my room!!!

Now time for bed. Its nice and cold in here and I'm ready to snuggle up under the covers.

April come faster!

Merry/Happy Preference Holiday!!!

I'm heading over to Dave's and will probably be there until tomorrow. Wish me luck with driving.

-NT-

My aunt called me to tell me to get Dave a gift card to a store he would like.

Dave and I went to best buy....

I found a Happy Hanukkah gift card...

I got it...

my aunt is Catholic....

I amuse myself....

*Work this weekend... so tired...
*Power outage at work first night... off for two hours..

*Got off early.. was on call...

*Celebrated dave mom's birthday...

*Grandma gave me a hug when I arrived and before I left...

*Christmas with dave's family on friday!

*Happy to have his family!

*And sleep...

Dave and I talked about moving in tonight. It is a for sure, and I knew it was before but it was nice to hear it. We talked about moving in mid April since I will need to be out of here by may 1st. That doesn't give me much time to break the news to Kim that I won't be staying here until June. I jokingly said to Dave that I would wait for Feb. I don't know if I can do that. But the thing is, I don't want to cause a fight. I know I had made verbal agreement before that I would stay to June, but I can't do it. I don't know how to go about this... In the end I'm probably going to look like a douche but I just want to move in with Dave and not live with a roommate who is a pain in the ass...

*sigh*
-NT-